Hello world!

When I first thought about blogging I thought about other people who blog, like John Scalzi who has been add it since before it was “cool”. Also thought about Joseph Mallozzi’s blog and how I wanted to be able to write like that.

I have always considered my self a writer although I have had no formal training, and haven’t had any thing critiqued enough to know if I’m any good.  Sure some things I wrote in high school got great marks but that was like 10+ years ago now!!

I kept a journal when I was younger but have for whatever reason since stopped (maybe I will pick that up again) maybe this will replace it.  Something to be said for putting ones thoughts out there in cyberspace for all the world to see.  I have no great dreams for this blog. Tons of other regular people just like me write and maintain a blog since it’s the “in” thing to do now and days. But I don’t expect to get a huge following nor for the first few months (or years if I keep it up) will anyone actually read this. It’s the hope that someone will that prompted me to start.  I plan to write about whatever is going on in the world, a news article that has caught my attention, music that is popular at the time, and alot about my experiences with living life with a facial difference.

There is a song that is currently popular by an artist called Bruno Mars, his song titled “Just The Way You Are” really struck a chord with me.  As someone who is insecure with how I look, how I feel and others reactions to me, I play this song or read its lyrics like a poem when I’m feeling especially vulnerable.

The lyrics go like this:

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they’re not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She’s so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don’t see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she’d let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She’s so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you’re searching for
Then just stay the same

So don’t even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

As silly as it might sound to some I know when I meet the right guy he will be singing this song to me while getting down on one knee. What?? A girl can dream can’t I??

My next post may or may not be tomorrow and it may or may not be exciting or even read. But lets see where this journey takes me/us!!


9 thoughts on “Hello world!

  1. This is very good writing. I read that you live in Canada. Have you ever considered living in the U.S.? I’ve also read you wanted to visit California for Blizz-con or Comic-con. Did you do that already? Also, do you enjoy watching Sci-fi movies? I use to watch X-Files a lot and Star-Gate. It would be nice to chat and maybe meet you sometime in the future. I think everyone is born to be different and if everyone was born the same the world would be a boring place. I use to find it strange that I never lost 2 of my baby teeth and I’m 32. Now I think it would be strange not to have them or have “normal teeth”.

  2. You should never stop dreaming. I can’t completely compare my life to yours by any means. But when I was younger I was fat, made fun of all the time. I had a bad child hood and for most of my life have had stupid twitches I can’t control that often can make me look odd. I’ve been able to hide and fake it sometimes to people but after awhile they usually notice. Being social it has been something that has Been hard for me for awhile. I have met girls but never had a family either and often wonder the same as you. Reading your story on CNN made me upset. Your not ugly and if anything have a nice smile. Your words are well spoken and I think you deserve everything this world can give you. Beauty is in the eye if the beholder. I’ve dated those kind of girls with no substance and just looks they become so ugly overtime. And I know when I lost weight when I was younger I saw how society changed and treated me different it was sad. If your up for a new friend now or later I would like that. Don’t give up on how you feel.

  3. Timing

    They wrapped her body
    In a large white dress
    And marked her lips
    Bright red.
    Oily lotion was smeared
    All over her skin
    The part that was visible
    While the rest started turning grey.
    She looked bigger than usual
    Although she was never really small
    Lying there on the carriage
    Engulfed within the pink material that surrounded her body.
    No one really loved her
    While she was alive
    But now they were kneeling
    By her side saying prayers.
    Sometime it takes time
    For people to realize
    A value
    Sometimes it is too late.

  4. hi! i read your article on cnn and thought to leave line here. cause i don’t really know to reach you. i really admire your bravery and wouldn’t mind to be your friend. i even think you are braver than me. 🙂

  5. Hey Penny,

    I read your story on CNN and I totally envie your spirit and your strength. I wish you all the very best. If I were 30 years younger I would ask you out for a date. Best regards Robert

  6. I know angels exist and I believe If you suspect someone is one and you ask them if they are a angel they must answer truthfully. Penny are you a angel?

  7. Hi Penny
    I believe CNN has unmasked a courageously brave superhero! Fortunately, I believe your mild mannered persona is equaly beautiful. We are all blessed to have your voice to protect us.

  8. Awesome story about your response to CNN. The older I get, the more I realize the things that make us different from the ‘norm’ are the things that unite us. People have such unrealistic, preconceived ideals of beauty that are virtually impossible for anyone to achieve. It is awesome to see the response of many because one person (you) took notice and voiced your opinion.

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